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16 September 2008 @ 12:11 am
Someone please tell me what does it mean when a guy asks a girl who her crush is... and calls her when she is not in charge of the task early morning…and calls her at night, almost midnight just to discuss about the task of where to do it….I mean he can call the OC of the project right, but instead he calls me…What does it means????

This happened few weeks ago....

He sits beside me during the concert when he got a choice to sit with his friends in the music ministry. He also initiated a conversation between us during the concert. He even stands behind me during the photo taking with the performer.

After the project ended, we had to sell the tickets on Sunday after masses. On Monday afternoon, he calls me to help him to sell the tickets in the campus. I mean he can always ask other people to help him out right but instead he calls me.

Wonder what makes me so attracted to him....
What I know is just that whatever I want in a guy, he has all of it....
Humorous, humble, can play music & even composing songs.

It just happens. I dunno when, but I guess the other day after we attended a briefing back at campus & adjourned to a cafe to discuss...I find him attractive there....But I haven't fall for him yet at that time...It's just a crush...As time passed by, I've known him for 1 month already, and slowly I begin to fall for him...

The first time I cry in front of him was on Thursday nite....being so stressed out with two projects need to be done...thinking back about my past...It really hurts me. Thanks to him who encouraged me to actually open up and shared out all the things that had been a burden to me...

On Friday nite, we went out for dinner, only the two of us....it was supposed to be a dinner together with everyone who involved with the project, however, I need to go back to send something to my friend and to take a bath which I actually say I'll take a bath at my friend's house because we need to finish the banner that night and we've got limited time to do it....however, he manage to persuade me to take it....so, I couldn't argue wit him...and he had to go to the campus cause he need to check out the club prayer meeting that night...It's movie night then...As the club president, he needs to make sure the movie is being played and members were there to watch it cause some of us couldn't make it because of the project.

After that, we went for dinner. I actually couldn't really ate my dinner cause I'm too exhausted, tired and sleepy...I didn't manage to sleep the whole nite on Thursday nite...only Friday morning for about 3hrs...then rush back to campus to take care of the booth....

On Saturday, we went out for breakfast after we did one of the projects....since we actually went there with two cars...I went with another friend. After breakfast, he actually ask me to follow him to another friend's house but before that he had to send K back to campus since K left his car there. In the car, K actually says good luck in "pakto"ing....I was blushing really hard at that moment....luckily he didn't realise it...

I just hope he will confess to me soon cause I’m in total dilemma. But can I give an answer to him if he ever ask it…I hope I can…I mean I am falling for him right. I don’t know what actually make him to call me to help him out but I can never say "no" because his voice in d phone really melted me...

My first time seeing him playing in a band during a concert…Guess what, I’m falling for him even more than before.

W, I'm gonna remember what u have said before. You said you will cry with me if I cry during praise and worship. You’re the first guy who actually says that to me…and I’m falling for you…
 
 
Current Location: Hostel
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Super Junior - U (Japanese Version)
 
 
neophnx
27 July 2008 @ 10:07 pm
Now I begin a new chapter in my life where I have become a university student and experiencing campus life in Curtin University, an Australian U which situated in Miri, Sarawak, Malaysia.

Last week, I attended the O-Week which is the orientation week. It was quite boring actually because of the talks and briefing but I like the activities that was done by the SOAR (A group of volunteer who conducted the O-Week especially the Detective Case (CSI alike game) where we have to find the murderer, motive and how it was done. On the last nite of the O-Week, they held a welcoming party and it was great.

Today, I join the outing for the Catholic students. Its something like the welcoming for the new student who join in the society. We had great time. After mass, we went to watch a movie, 'Dark Knight". Then we went to the seaside to have our dinner there. Gosh, the wind was so heavy, it actually can blow us away.

I really enjoy my first week here. But for the rest of this half year, its gonna be a tough one. Full with tutorials and lectures. But I'm lucky coz I only took Bachelor in Business Administration.
 
 
neophnx
30 June 2008 @ 02:11 am
LOL.....
Last year I've got strange dream involving TVXQ especially Xiah Jun Su.....
There s no need for me to elaborate the dream but gosh...It was so sweet....
I've never remember my dream so well but this dream seems to be so real....
And just few days ago, I've dreamt of EeTeuk of Super Junior.....
I was saying....gosh, why do I always dream of celebrities but I never get to dream of my love one...
But I'm glad coz not many were able to dream of celebrities...
How I just love TVXQ & Super Junior
Although Its just a dream but I will always remember it.....
SARANGHYEYO TVXQ & SUPER JUNIOR
 
 
Current Location: At the living room
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Supper Junior Happy - Sunny
 
 
neophnx
25 October 2007 @ 02:35 am

Title: Somebody To Love

Pairings: Mainly Yoomin, Jaeho & slight of Jaemin

Rating: PG 13         

Chapters: 5/?

Summary: Changmin is heart broken because he was not able to tell Jaejoong that he loves him. He then was offered a scholarship to continue his studies in Virginia, USA. There he meets with Yoochun. Feelings start to develop between them. What will happen between Changmin & Jaejoong? Will Changmin accept Yoochun as his other half? Read the story to find it out.

Author's Note: I will not be able to update this story of mine frequently but I will try my best to update it.

Cross posted in hug______  & seuki

Disclaimer: I don’t own TVXQ but a great fan of them….
A/n: Sorry for the late update. I was too busy with my final project that I seem to forget about this fic.


Chapter 5

 

The day has come for Changmin to go to America. He didn’t tell his friends that he will be leaving. Instead, he left a letter for them on the dining table. He even prepares breakfast for them. Sadly, he left the apartment, his friends especially Jae behind.

 

Jaejoong was the first to wake up. After washing up, he went to the kitchen to do his daily routine that is preparing breakfast. But as he stepped the kitchen, he was surprise to see food being laid on the table. He saw a white envelope beside the food and opens it.

 

 

My dearest hyungs,

 

I know you guys are surprised to see the breakfast on the table and this letter. When you guys read this letter, I’m on my way to America to continue my study there. I was offered a scholarship three days ago. I’m sorry for my abrupt departure and for not telling you guys earlier. I apologies for everything I’ve done ever since we became friends and for my behaviors these past few days.

 

Jaejoong hyung, I have always wanted to say this to you but I don’t have the courage to say it; I love you but now you belong to Yunho hyung. Don’t worry about me being heart broken, times will heal the wounds. I also wanted to apologies for yelling at you the other day. I didn’t mean it. I wish you all the best.

 

Yunho hyung, I envied you for your love towards Jaejoong hyung. There are times where I felt hurt seeing both of you making out session and pretended as if I’m not there. But I believe, one day I will find my own happiness.  I hope you will cherish and love Jaejoong hyung.

 

Last but not least, Junsu hyung. Thanks for being with me and bring laughter and joy to me although there are times your jokes aren’t funny but I still enjoy it. I will surely miss you dolphin squeak.

 

Please accept the breakfast as my apologies and my farewell gift. The past years we spend together had created beautiful memories to me. I will always remember it. Once again, I want to say I’m sorry and I wish you guys best of luck. I will always remember you guys.

 

                                                                                                            Changmin

 

 

After reading the letter, Jaejoong felt his tears started to well up. “Changmin, I never knew that you love me till it hurts you so much. Forgive me, Min.”

 

Not long after, Yunho and Junsu enter the kitchen. Yunho is surprise to see Jaejoong crying.

“Boo, what happen? Why are you crying? Is there anything wrong?”

 

“Yunnie, Changmin has left us. He….”

 

“What do you mean by Changmin has left us hyung?”

 

“Read this letter.”

 

So, both Yunho and Junsu read the letter; after reading it, they felt guilty and surprise. They didn’t know about Changmin’s feeling all this while.

 

“I never knew that we are the cause of him feeling sad.”

 

“I can’t believe it. He didn’t even tell us he was going to leave us. I’m going to his room. He must be joking.”

 

Junsu run to the room occupied by Changmin. He opens it and saw that the room is empty as if no one had ever occupied the room.

 

“Changmin ah, why, why you never shared it out to me. You always share your problem with me.” Junsu cried out.

 

“No wonder he acts differently these past few days. He even treat us for dinner which is not his usual self,” say Yunho.

 

Junsu walked back to the dining area. He sat on the chair and started eating the breakfast. “Hyung, don’t you want to eat. I don't want to waste his effort for preparing the breakfast.”

 

“I guess we can just pray that he will find the one he will love and cherish with his whole heart. Boo, let’s eat. It is the only way we can ask for his forgiveness although he is no longer here.”

 

The three of them eat in silent while thinking about their other friend, Changmin; wishing him well.

 

 
 
Current Location: The corner of my heart
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Koda Kumi feat TVXQ - Last Angel
 
 
neophnx
09 October 2007 @ 11:42 pm

Title: Somebody To Love

Pairings: Mainly Yoomin, Jaeho & slight of Jaemin

Rating: PG 13

Chapters: 4/?

Summary: Changmin is heart broken because he was not able to tell Jaejoong that he loves him. He then was offered a scholarship to continue his studies in Virginia, USA. There he meets with Yoochun. Feelings start to develop between them. What will happen between Changmin & Jaejoong? Will Changmin accept Yoochun as his other half? Read the story to find it out.

Author's Note: I will not be able to update this story of mine frequently but I will try my best to update it.

Cross posted in hug______ & seuki

Disclaimer: I don’t own TVXQ but a great fan of them….



Chapter 4

 

At the college, the principle wants to meet with Changmin. He was offered a scholarship to study in Virginia, America. Without hesitant, Changmin gladly accept the scholarship. He will be leaving for America the next two days.

 

Meanwhile, Jaejoong, Yunho and Junsu are busy searching for Changmin. They wanted to talk to him. Asking him the problem that has been bothering him. They searched everyway but without any luck.

 

“I guess we just have to wait for him at home. We still have classes to attend,” say Junsu.

 

“Well, I guess we will wait for him at home then,” said Jae.

 

So the three of them went to their class.

 

At the apartment, Changmin is busy packing all his things. He only brings the things which he feels important while his other things, he will send it to his parent’s home. For the next two days, he plans to be with his friends before leaving them. He doesn’t want to tell any of them about his transferring to America.

 

When he finishes packing up all his things, he sat down at the sofa in the living room. Something caught his attention. He saw a photo he took with his friends few months ago.

 

Just when he was about to approach the photo, he heard the front door unlocked. Soon his friends enter the living room. They were surprise to see Changmin at home.

 

“Changmin, where have you been? We have been searching for you the whole day at the campus,’ said Jaejoong.

 

“Sorry, I didn’t tell you guys earlier that I need to go to the college early morning. There is something that I need to do.”

 

“But what’s with your entire bad mood thingy yesterday. You even drink and got drunk last night. Is there any problem?” Yunho ask.

 

“Erm, well, yesterday I just don’t feel right. Maybe I feel stressful because of my assignments. But I’m ok now. Sorry to bother you guys with my mood yesterday.”

 

“Its ok, but next time if you wanna have a drink session, don’t forget to invite us,” Junsu say.

 

“Sure. Erm guys, do you have any plan tonight?” ask Changmin.

 

“No. Do you have any?” ask Yunho.

 

“I was thinking of treating you guys for dinner. Is that ok?”

 

“Who wants to reject food especially if it is free. I’m in,” say Junsu.

 

“We’re in too,” answer Jaejoong and Yunho.

 

“Well then, what are you guys waiting for? Go and get ready.”




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A/N: Sorry for the late update....I'm having writer block currently.
YooMin pairing will only appear in Chapter 6.

 
 
Current Location: The corner of my heart
Current Mood: cold
Current Music: Non Onjena - TVXQ
 
 
neophnx
28 September 2007 @ 01:40 am

Title: Somebody To Love

Pairings: Mainly Yoomin, Jaeho & slight of Jaemin

Rating: PG 13         

Chapters: 3/?

Summary: Changmin is heart broken because he was not able to tell Jaejoong that he loves him. He then was offered a scholarship to continue his studies in Virginia, USA. There he meets with Yoochun. Feelings start to develop between them. What will happen between Changmin & Jaejoong? Will Changmin accept Yoochun as his other half? Read the story to find it out.

Author's Note: I will not be able to update this story of mine frequently but I will try my best to update it.

Cross posted in hug______  & seuki

Disclaimer: I don’t own TVXQ but a great fan of them….




Chapter 3
 

Next morning, Changmin wake up early. He caught up with a hangover, but he doesn’t care about it. He refreshes himself and get ready to go to college. He doesn’t want to see any of his housemate for the time being. He left the house early before any of them wake up.
 
Jae went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. It has been his usual routine every morning. After finish preparing breakfast, he went to wake up the boys. When he enters Changmin’s room he was so surprise to see that Changmin is not in the room.
 
“This is weird. Changmin usually is the last one to wake up.”
 
“Morning boo.”
 
“Morning Yunnie.”
 
“Why with that look?”
 
“Something is wrong with Changmin. Usually, he was the last one to wake up but today when I went to his room, he was not there.”
 
“Maybe he got something to do in college, which is why he’s up early.”
 
“I hope so.”
 
“Let’s have our breakfast then we go to college and try to find Changmin there. Junsu must be waiting for us already at the dining table.”
 
“Ok.”


__________________________________________________________________________________________________________

A/n:  Sorry for the short chapter and late update.
 
 
Current Location: My personal room
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Rainy Night - Xiah Junsu
 
 
neophnx
18 September 2007 @ 12:39 pm
</form>
Who will you marry in DBSK? by thaigerl
Your favorite color?
Your favorite song?
You will marryMicky
OnDecember 2, 2007
InDisney World FL
 
 
neophnx
18 September 2007 @ 12:36 pm
</form>
Which Song Will DBSK Sing To You? by nancy
Your Name
Your Age
Your B-Day
Your Favorite Color
Your Favorite Member
Whats Your Favorite Song That They Sang
This Is The Song They Will Sing To YouTri-Angle
 
 
neophnx
18 September 2007 @ 12:29 pm
</form>
What will happen the first time you meet DBSK? by Teukstrid
Name
Age
Favorite DBSK member
Who will notice you firstJunsu
The first thing he says isYou brought us candy? Aaaahw
What happens nextThey give you an original "Balloons" costume
Right before you leave...Jaejoong winks at you and tells you to call him
 
 
neophnx
</form>
What kind of Day at School would you have with DBSK? by Melody
Name/Username
You walk to school withXiah
In front of the school, you see...Max
Coming to school by...Private Jet
He...Walks you into school
In homeroom the person who walks in late is...Micky
You greet him. He...Sits next to you
Later that day, in your pocket you find...Money
From...Xiah
You...Say "Cool!"
You go to your locker but find...Max locked inside
You ask what he's doing, he...Greets you
You both end up going to the caf. together and seeYunho
He...Passes by you
You...Smile
You sit down with the person/people with you but..Hero
and...Max
start to...Fight in the cafeteria for you!
You return to your locker...Jumping for joy
You find a love note in your locker from...Yunho
You...Panic!
In your last class...Yunho
Asks"What's your phone number?"
You answer...-.-
At the end of the day outside...Hero
Asks..."Want me to walk you home?"
You answer...Sure...
He some how ends up walking you home and...Gives you a sudden kiss to express his love!
After, you say..."Sorry, my heart belongs to someone else"
Suddenly the other DBSK members pop out saying...I'm here to save you!
THEY FIGHT! The person left standing is...Max
He walks you home, but yells at the other guys...You guys are weaker than I though =.=
You both are now standing at your door. He...Sings to you
When you're inside, you...Write what happened today in your diary
You thought this quiz was...AWESOME!!!
 
 
neophnx
17 September 2007 @ 10:32 pm

Title: Somebody To Love

Pairings: Mainly Yoomin, Jaeho & slight of Jaemin

Rating: PG 13

Chapters: 2/?

Summary: Changmin is heart broken because he was not able to tell Jaejoong that he loves him. He then was offered a scholarship to continue his studies in Virginia, USA. There he meets with Yoochun. Feelings start to develop between them. What will happen between Changmin & Jaejoong? Will Changmin accept Yoochun as his other half? Read the story to find it out.

Author's Note: I will not be able to update this story of mine frequently but I will try my best to update it.

Cross posted in hug______ & seuki,

Disclaimer: I don’t own TVXQ but a great fan of them….


Chapter 2
 
Once Changmin step out of the apartment, he doesn’t know where he wants to go. He went to the nearest store, bought a pack of cigarette and a few cans of beer. He just feels like drinking tonight, to be drunk and leaving everything behind.
 
He went to the park, reminiscence the time when they first become friends when they were in high school going to the same college and staying in an apartment. But everything change when he found out that his best friends is in love with each other. Day by day, he’s been drive out further and further of their relationship.
 
Meanwhile at home, Jaejoong is waiting for Changmin to come back. The others have already gone to bed. He wants to talk to him, asking what has been troubling him. It is 1.30am when Jaejoong heard the front door open and rush to the door when he saw Changmin in a drunken state.
 
“Changmin, where have you been? You smell smoke and alcohol. Have you been drinking and smoking?” Jaejoong ask worriedly.
 
“I’ve been to nowhere and I think I’m old enough to drink and smoke, don’t I,” replied Changmin.
 
“Let me help you to your room. You’re drunk,” said Jaejoong.
 
“It’s ok; I know the way to my room. You can go back to your room. I’m fine and I’m not drunk,” say Changmin.
 
“But Changmin, you are drunk. Let me help you,” said Jae.
 
“Jae, if I know my way back home, why can’t I know my way to my room. Just mind your own business.”
 
With that, Changmin went to his room slamming the door aloud. He doesn’t care if anyone is angry with his action. He couldn’t care less. Why should he? He’s the one in pain, being depressed, being left out alone, being outcast.
 
Jaejoong was left stunning in the living room. He was stun to see the changes of behavior on Changmin. Yunho and Junsu woke up when they heard the door slam.
                          
“Jae, what happen?” ask Yunho.
 
“It’s Changmin. He came back home in a drunken state. I can see he is totally depressed. But I couldn’t talk to him yet. Let him rest for tonight and I will try and ask him again tomorrow.”
 
So, they head back to their room.
 
 
Current Location: In my own world
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: TVXQ - Hug
 
 
neophnx
14 September 2007 @ 11:23 pm

Title: Somebody To Love

Pairings: Mainly Yoomin, Jaeho & slight of Jaemin

Rating: PG 13         

Chapters: 1/?

Summary: Changmin is heart broken because he was not able to tell Jaejoong that he loves him. He then was offered a scholarship to continue his studies in Virginia, USA. There he meets with Yoochun. Feelings start to develop between them. What will happen between Changmin & Jaejoong? Will Changmin accept Yoochun as his other half? Read the story to find it out.

Author's Note: I will not be able to update this story of mine frequently but I will try my best to update it. Hope to receive comments on my first fic.

Cross posted  in </a></b></a>[info]hug______  & </a></b></a>[info]seuki
</font>Disclaimer: I don’t own TVXQ but a great fan of them….


Chapter 1
 
Dear diary,
 
What is love? Am I worthy to love? Will I be able to love others? That is the question I always ask myself. Whenever I see Jaejoong together with Yunho, I feel like being the extra one, being left out, being neglected. I don’t know when it happens but I know I have fallen in love with Jaejoong long ago but I was too late to confess my love to him. Yunho confess to him first. I feel the pain whenever they have their make out session, they will always pretend as if I’m not there. I’m invincible to them. I don’t think I will be able to stay long in this place, a place where I don’t feel the belonging. I have made up my mind; I want to get out of this house. What’s the use of staying here if I don’t sense anything anymore? Before, whenever I face troubles and problems, they always sense it even when I try to hide it. But now, now it’s totally different; they will never sense it anymore. They are too busy to meddle with my life anymore, too busy showing their affection towards each other. I don’t think I can stand it any longer. What should I do?
 
“Changmin, its dinner time.”
 
“I’ll be out in a minute.”
 
“Ok.”
 
During dinner, Changmin just doesn’t have the appetite to eat.
 
“Erm, guys, I going out for a while.”
 
“But Changmin, you barely eat anything,” say Jaejoong.
 
“I don’t have any appetite tonight, I just feel like going out for a walk.”
 
And with that, he left the table and went out of the house.
 
“Do you guys sense something is wrong with Changmin? He wasn’t the usual self,” ask Jaejoong.
 
“Something is not right with Changmin. The Changmin we know never left the table without finishing the food,” said Yunho.
 
“I think someone must talk to him to know his problem I know he is hiding something,” said Junsu.
 
“Jae, you are good at comforting, maybe you should talk to him about his problem. Besides, you are the closest to him,” say Yunho.
 
“Ok, I will talk to him later,” Jaejoong answered.



 
 
Current Location: In the living room
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: TVXQ - Choosey Lover
 
 
 
 

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